RATED: M for adult situations, dark themes, language and sexual content.
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Summary: Edward is a 27-year-old alcoholic/addict struggling with his recovery. Bella is a 23-year-old who's moved back home after college. This fic chronicles how they meet, fall in love, and struggle with the complexities of their relationship. Not nearly as maudlin as it sounds (I hope).
Rated NC-17 for graphic (and sometimes non-romantic) sex, drug and alcohol use and abuse, profane language, and brief (very brief) suicidal ideation (although NO suicide attempts). No sexual assault, no cutting.
I'm not going to lie to you, the first chapter of this fic is extremely hard to read. Edward hits absolute rock bottom and the way it's described is raw and real and visceral... and beautiful in a really grotesque and horrible way.
If you can make yourself power through the first chapter, the rest is not so bad. Edward is heartbreaking; broken but trying and awkwardly coming to grips with his sobriety. Bella is sweet but also kind of lost; lonely but distant, yet incredibly needy.
She and Edward strike up an awkward friendship, full of stuttering half sentences and shy looks and blushes. It's endearing and twists my heart a little bit. They are attracted to one another, but know it's not the right time in Edward's life to start anything.
As always, the restraint doesn't last long. They've only kissed so far, but let me tell you... that first kiss... it wrecked me a little bit. It was SO real; awkward and uncertain and almost painful until it all burns away under the heat of their need for one another. Absolutely beautiful. My heart was racing.
I know some of the situations in this fic can hit a little too close to home - they certainly did for me - but if you can get past it, it's a truly beautiful story.
RATED: M for language and what I hope will be adult situations soon
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Summary: When it's time for the Cullen vampire clan to leave their home in Chicago, an old vision of Alice's dictates their next move. Six years earlier, Edward Masen had been a patient of Carlisle's: young, innocent, broken, and blissfully unaware of the destiny Alice had seen for him.
Now living in Forks, Edward is haunted, depressed, and consumed by unrequited love. A mysterious note turns up in the pages of a book given to him on the worst day of his life, leaving him more confused than ever about his place in the world. When the meaning of the message becomes clear in a single terrifying instant, Edward must make a painful choice in order to secure not only his own fate, but also the lives of the people he can't exist without.
So this story is kind of a mindfuck. It's a really great twist on canon, but just when you think you've got a hold on what's going to happen, Em goes ahead and psychs your mind.
Edward meets Alice and Carlisle when he's a child in the hospital after his parents die in a car wreck. Alice sees that Edward will one day join their family, though she cannot see how or why. Edward moves to Forks to live with his aunt, and the Cullens follow years later, in preparation for the time Alice knows he will be getting ready to join them.
Edward is sad panda. (Most people have named him Hugward, because Jesus does this kid need a hug, but I call him SadSpiceWard. Because I'm strange.) He feels responsible for his parents' death, and the guilt is a crushing weight; his self loathing and depression is very canon. He's also ridiculously in love with Bella, but kind of a nerd and unable to tell her. She is, of course, also ridiculously in love with him, but because he is so shy around her she assumes he barely knows she exists.
Edward's aunt dies, and he feels equally responsible - as though he is a curse to everyone around him; as though his mere presence has somehow orchestrated their deaths. Bella makes the decision to go to him, to comfort him and they become close friends... which obviously leads to them professing their love for one another.
AND THEN Em mindfucks you. Something happens and then OH MY GOD EDWARD IS A VAMPIRE and... I will say no more so I don't ruin it for you.
Both of these fics have me in their grips and I can't wait until they update. I harass EchoesOfTwilight pretty regularly on Twitter because I'm annoying like that, but so far have not been able to track down Ms. TalulaBlue to fangirl and beg her to post on FFn. So if you see her, tell her I'm looking for her.
Until next week, chickens...
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